Dennis Nguyen,

Sometimes you do something without potentially knowing how much damage you’ve actually done. Sometimes the damages are worse than they appear to others, but they’ll never understand but you don’t want to say/bring anything up about it because if they don’t already notice, then they’d look at you differently. They might already look at you different, but you’d rather feel like they don’t know rather then know that they know. The damages could be physical, emotional or just in the state of mind but either way, you know, that you’ll never be the same because of how much you’ve fucked up in your past. It brings you down because you know how much of a perfect life you had and how you much you had took advantage of such a good life you were living and now everything you once had just disappeared before you could notice the changes. What makes it even harder is the fact that you dwell on how bright of a future you had and now you can’t follow through with your future no more because you wasted 2 months of your life doing things that you shouldn’t have been doing. I always knew I was something different, I just wish that every time I told a girl that, I realized how different I am. The world through my eyes is so, so, so, different now. If I can overcome this whole predicament than I know that I can overcome anything in my life. “I’m not cocky, I’m just confident” I used to say that all the time when girls called me cocky. I’m no longer confident, social, or happy. I had it all, I really did. And if you know me, you know it too. I’ll never be the same again, and I’m not saying this for the moment type shit, I’m saying this because It’s true, and if you were to hear the reason for my misery’s word for word in my point of view you’d believe it.

October 25, 2009, 4:36am

Dennis Nguyen,

Just when I thought things got better, I stepped out the door and started feeling overwhelmed.

First things first, I sit down, get my I-phone, tryna load back you and me dot com.

My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I.. Got out of bed at all. The morning rain clouds up my window.. And I can't see at all, and even if I could it'd be all gray. But your picture on my wall, it reminds me, that it's not so bad, It's not so bad.

There is neither happiness nor misery in the world; there is only the comparison of one state to another, nothing more. He who has felt the deepest grief is best able to experience supreme happiness. We must have felt what it is to die, that we may appreciate the enjoyments of life.

I absolutely adore people/girls with a good heart, and you, most definitely have a good heart.

We've all gone through a lot of shit to become who we are today, the thing is, I never became who I was suppose to be today.

Why do things have to pass you by? The things that are so irreplaceable, they seem to run by without giving us the chance to see how much we've just lost.

It is never too late to be what you might have been.

If I could change the world, I would be the sunlight in your universe. You would think my love is really something good. . .

I feel like everything is shifted with the women, cause the lady's like a bad boy and again, I'm something different. That's why I look for older, independent ladies living cause they're good with their decisions.